There was a fortune cookie that read, "Romance and travel will go together." I sighed in relief. In the past 5 years I've quit many jobs to travel. Many friends pressure me to go to school or take up a career. Be more romantic and shit. So I feel torn. I love my friends and value their opinions, but traveling really makes me happy. So the sigh was at a thought of being able to travel all over and still stay close with the people who are close to my heart.
I was reading the blog of someone whose journey makes me feel far less different in my own. They were talking about dating themselves. That post inspired me to write more honestly. I stopped dating a long time ago. I started feeling that there is no one loyal out there and stopped letting myself care about those types of feelings. Sure it may be an illegitimate (no pun intended) way to feel, but feelings remain.
There is more to it though. Dating myself became very enjoyable. Rather than structure my life around one other person. I could roam freely. I began hobbies and started making tons of friends. And yes, I started to learn about who I really was. What I like and what makes me happy. I wouldn't shower for days and stopped worrying about how other people view me. The most genuine people I've met started crawling out of the woodwork.
I began learning to see behavioral patterns and could avoid counter-productive relationships much sooner. So the journey of finding myself became rewarding. The world became a much smaller place. Because even though I'd never met certain people I could spot their intentions quickly.
This is sorta just a ramble, it feels nice to write out
Friday, September 16, 2016
Always running
Monday, July 11, 2016
The Roots
Greetings,
The gardening has been going well. Since I stopped posting a few years ago I've been practicing what I've learned in the garden a lot more. However, like Lord of the Rings, getting the whole story sheds abundant light. In growing up, I quickly learned the more I would try to excel in different aspects of life the more opposition I would face. By the time I turned 18 I began seeing it as helpful to spend time alone. I was working at a crowded bar at the time. Getting away from all the energy was relaxing.
I am a kind person. At the time, kindness was not popular in the world. So I began walking the Thames River, often with a beer. It was rare to find nature without nicely trimmed grass in the part of the city I lived. I enjoyed watching the birds and walking till I had no idea where I was. It became a challenge to find my way home at times. It was nice and peaceful. Eventually I ran into this Library that was unlike anything I'd seen before. That was when I realized pursuing peaceful resolutions was rewarding me. This was the National Archives of U.K.
That realization helped me get through some college instead of worrying about more temporary things. I met someone who had just returned from helping out in a foreign country. We talked about ways natural resources could be used to help feed a lot of people. A bit down the road I began digging into clay soil and plantings starts in it. I didn't have much success at first, but I slowly and at times quickly learned. The roots needed softer soil to grow into. Leaves break down into more nitrogen and branches into more carbon. By layering mulch I didn't have to water as often. I started watching videos and reading all about gardening.
I noticed other people had little interest in my gardening so it became a place I could get away too. When I'd be frustrated I would work in the garden until I could barely stand. After about a year of that I was able to find a new path and learn new skills. I began getting an abundance of food and getting stronger.
I also began doing yoga more and learning to let energy go without responding. This eventually allowed me to safely spend time with people from nearly any walk of life. Though now I'd spent time watching the spiral patterns of life. I've found happiness, genuine love, and trust while learning about gardening, yoga and making friends in places where I entered knowing no one.
I feel like even though people have emotional attachment to stuff and/or desires they should still be treated with as much respect as a ladybug, to say the least. So the past few years I have been back in the garden. In nature I often see many expressions of beauty. I'm guessing a lack of natural nutrients in the food supply has a lot to do with current and past health issues than our science understands. However, I love gardening, so of course I'd say that. Namaste
The gardening has been going well. Since I stopped posting a few years ago I've been practicing what I've learned in the garden a lot more. However, like Lord of the Rings, getting the whole story sheds abundant light. In growing up, I quickly learned the more I would try to excel in different aspects of life the more opposition I would face. By the time I turned 18 I began seeing it as helpful to spend time alone. I was working at a crowded bar at the time. Getting away from all the energy was relaxing.
I am a kind person. At the time, kindness was not popular in the world. So I began walking the Thames River, often with a beer. It was rare to find nature without nicely trimmed grass in the part of the city I lived. I enjoyed watching the birds and walking till I had no idea where I was. It became a challenge to find my way home at times. It was nice and peaceful. Eventually I ran into this Library that was unlike anything I'd seen before. That was when I realized pursuing peaceful resolutions was rewarding me. This was the National Archives of U.K.
That realization helped me get through some college instead of worrying about more temporary things. I met someone who had just returned from helping out in a foreign country. We talked about ways natural resources could be used to help feed a lot of people. A bit down the road I began digging into clay soil and plantings starts in it. I didn't have much success at first, but I slowly and at times quickly learned. The roots needed softer soil to grow into. Leaves break down into more nitrogen and branches into more carbon. By layering mulch I didn't have to water as often. I started watching videos and reading all about gardening.
I noticed other people had little interest in my gardening so it became a place I could get away too. When I'd be frustrated I would work in the garden until I could barely stand. After about a year of that I was able to find a new path and learn new skills. I began getting an abundance of food and getting stronger.
I also began doing yoga more and learning to let energy go without responding. This eventually allowed me to safely spend time with people from nearly any walk of life. Though now I'd spent time watching the spiral patterns of life. I've found happiness, genuine love, and trust while learning about gardening, yoga and making friends in places where I entered knowing no one.
I feel like even though people have emotional attachment to stuff and/or desires they should still be treated with as much respect as a ladybug, to say the least. So the past few years I have been back in the garden. In nature I often see many expressions of beauty. I'm guessing a lack of natural nutrients in the food supply has a lot to do with current and past health issues than our science understands. However, I love gardening, so of course I'd say that. Namaste
Saturday, January 16, 2016
Citrus Artichoke Companion Planting and Compassion
Greetings readers, it has been awhile since an update. Currently the garden is mostly barren, however the soil is filled with various seeds waiting to sprout in spring. Last year the tomato harvest was more abundant than I could eat or give away. Blessings.
What remains is artichokes, proudly unaffected by the frost, as well as a few onions. There is also a grapefruit tree. Knowing citrus plants don't tolerate frost and being too lazy to cover it every-time the temperatures drop, I planted it right next to the artichoke plants. I am surprised at how well it is doing.
The artichoke leaves have now grown slightly over the grapefruit tree. Amazingly enough, the grapefruit tree is not only surviving, but growing into the artichoke's protection. There has been a fair amount of new growth since the first frost of the year. I heard that underneath a plant canopy, frost takes much longer to settle. This also can lessen the cold if for some reason you have to sleep outside during cold conditions.
It has been a difficult year, dealing with a lot of aggressive behavior. The rewards have been great though. By turning the other cheek I have been able to explain how toxins and malnutrition affect emotions. A bit over 7 years ago, I had a conversation with a friend about world hunger. I felt there was little I could do to help, much less reverse the process, because it is not profitable. So I choose to stop dating and stop working to build my own wealth, in order to make an actual impact.
That is very much why I started this blog. To offer what I have been learning about feeding and healing myself without monetary input. During that time I have learned a tremendous amount and am grateful. I've not only learned a great deal about gardening and nutrition, but how to meet people where they are at. Over the years many of the most sincere people I've met have been wanderers, homeless and "mentally challenged." I quickly learned many of these people really could use a listening ear and someone to accept them for who they are. This helped me come to peace with behaviors of people that have caused me to feel mistreated in the past.
After 7 years had passed I decided to return to a more comfortable lifestyle. Mostly because the loneliness is rough. I took a vacation to New York to celebrate and accepted a job above minimum wage for the first time since then. I'm not sure where my journey will lead me now, but I am excited for new beginnings. I plan to still continue being generous and compassionate, simply am now seeking the Middle Way that Buddha spoke of. Thank you everyone for reading. Until next time
What remains is artichokes, proudly unaffected by the frost, as well as a few onions. There is also a grapefruit tree. Knowing citrus plants don't tolerate frost and being too lazy to cover it every-time the temperatures drop, I planted it right next to the artichoke plants. I am surprised at how well it is doing.
The artichoke leaves have now grown slightly over the grapefruit tree. Amazingly enough, the grapefruit tree is not only surviving, but growing into the artichoke's protection. There has been a fair amount of new growth since the first frost of the year. I heard that underneath a plant canopy, frost takes much longer to settle. This also can lessen the cold if for some reason you have to sleep outside during cold conditions.
It has been a difficult year, dealing with a lot of aggressive behavior. The rewards have been great though. By turning the other cheek I have been able to explain how toxins and malnutrition affect emotions. A bit over 7 years ago, I had a conversation with a friend about world hunger. I felt there was little I could do to help, much less reverse the process, because it is not profitable. So I choose to stop dating and stop working to build my own wealth, in order to make an actual impact.
That is very much why I started this blog. To offer what I have been learning about feeding and healing myself without monetary input. During that time I have learned a tremendous amount and am grateful. I've not only learned a great deal about gardening and nutrition, but how to meet people where they are at. Over the years many of the most sincere people I've met have been wanderers, homeless and "mentally challenged." I quickly learned many of these people really could use a listening ear and someone to accept them for who they are. This helped me come to peace with behaviors of people that have caused me to feel mistreated in the past.
After 7 years had passed I decided to return to a more comfortable lifestyle. Mostly because the loneliness is rough. I took a vacation to New York to celebrate and accepted a job above minimum wage for the first time since then. I'm not sure where my journey will lead me now, but I am excited for new beginnings. I plan to still continue being generous and compassionate, simply am now seeking the Middle Way that Buddha spoke of. Thank you everyone for reading. Until next time
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